why do people want to be alive?

it’s been a crazy ride… i’m bipolar 2 and it’s always a roller coaster for me. even on meds, there are comfort days, the happy days, but you know you’ll cycle again eventually and hit those sad depressing days.

i feel also for those with mdd, bpd, and everyone here in this sub (whatvr ur diagnosis is).

how to find the will to keep living? why would i want to keep living this unpredictable life :( i’m not even happy with my career. i just made a very stupid and impulsive decision back in HS thats why i ended up here and not having any choice for an alternative career.

right now, im not suicidal, just anhedonic. i dont look forward to my hypomanic days either because i just get my hopes up and then i cycle again.

why are y’all still alive? why are we still here 🥹 dont you guys find it so hard to live our psychiatrically-doomed lives? side note i was physically sick before (10 yrs ago), i wasn’t mentally ill yet at that time, but personally i found it easier to overcome physical diseases than mental diseases. struggling with the mind is just HELL.

sorry for this, i just want to get it off my chest. im so sad & i know this mental struggle will be with me for as long as i’m alive. and therefore i don’t wanna be alive anymore 🥹